Insecurity

Hi.

Well, this is every girl's biggest fear. The fear of being unwanted. Fear of being left out. Drifting through this modern era, people are becoming more and more judgmental though they claim themselves neutral. Oh crap. Girls are so fragile although you may see her stronger in the outside. Her heart is like the ocean wave. Sometimes it bids you pleasure but other times, maybe it could give you a heartache, I swear! So, their insecurity level is no joke, and you,my dear fellas, don't you ever make a fuss of her physical appearance. You never know how much time that she had invested to just look good in front of others, dolling up herself, make the best out of her. You never know how hard she tries to win people's heart and stand out among the crowds. Yes,that requires a major appreciation, but nahhh all she wants is just you, to acknowledge her presence and treat her like a person. Yes, a person. Do you know why? Cause most of the time, society only look up to people with pretty faces. Hahaha. Maybe you will say that I'm just being prejudice. Tell me, when you go on instagram, will your search engine be filled with the name of people who aren't that pretty and handsome? Bull's-eyes! I know right, it's our human nature to lay our eyes on beautiful things.But, never make it as a ticket for you to condemn others with an average look. All the beauty figures on instagram, they look so perfect in the eyes of the society, driving their thoughts to transform their wives, daughters or even girlfriends to look just like those beauties. They start condemning and contemplating every flaws that their girls have, wanting them to be as perfect as the beauty figures that they lavishly flatter. Too indulged with other people's perspectives, these unfortunate girls, start to lose their confidence level. Every bit and inch of their appearance is lacking to their concern."I want to be flawless", " Damn, look at those thigh gaps" , "My cheeks are getting swollen" , " I want a flat stomach", "I want to lose weight". They will never be satisfied until they get what they want. Some of them are willing to spend a large amount of money (hundreds or even thousands) and put themselves at risk for buying beauty products to obtain a faster result.*close up your dropping jaws first* This is just a glimpse of what girls are obsessing in the pursuit of  beauty. Nevertheless, people will never notice how broken she is in the inside regardless the flash of smiles that she presented to the whole world. She feels like giving up on everything. She hates herself for being fake. She loses her true identity. All she that has is just temporary. Knowing that people love her only for her beauty, left her in a bleak suffer. She suffers a lot,physically and mentally, in order to meet your pleasure and suit your preferences.


xoxo,
btrsyafni

Goodbye

Dear self,

Saying goodbye is not literally on occasion that you simply wave your hand to bid farewell to each other but it can also symbolise your enthusiasm in leaving alone your past.Cause every time the clock strikes twelve on the day of your first acknowledgement to the world, it'll somehow bring you to enter a new phase of life let alone give you a different meaning and interpretation of your very own story line. So batrisyia,lets grow and discover new things in life. Stop bringing up your past and start to kick off your brand new start,brand new life. Despite all those silly thoughts that ppl have been spitting over you, try to build your own walls and prove them wrong. Make it stiff, make it indestructible! Draw your dreamed future by patiently sketching it in your very own style. Stay rooted my dear. Keep in mind, what's prior should be lined in the first row without ditching the little things. Purify your intention and may He bless you with steadfastness upon seeking for the light in everything that you do. Remind yourself to obey God first, then you'll be free to seek anything in this dunya. Bring your deen along and you may not astray from the right path. Piety is something that you must put all your effort and be devoted to everything that have been restricted by Him. There's no shortcut to pursue victory. Tell yourself, it's okay to fall sometimes, cause you'll be more realistic in planning your long-term strategy. Be rational no matter how hard the barriers keep dragging you down, cause if you let your emotion rule over you, it might render you to switch on your self-destructive mode. If you are at the verge of giving up, remember all the hard works that you've been putting throughout the journey. Remember how tiring it was for your parents to work days and nights to make sure you dont starve and keep your nessicity at all ease. And, remember that God will test you only  for things that you could barely overcome and handle with your own hand.Be strong and live life to the fullest! May force be with you, dear batrisyia afni! 

Cherish your life, make your loved ones happy, spread the good vibes to enlighten ppl's heart and captivate their mind in awe with your charm!

Hello degree, lets embrace each other and enlivened the language!

xoxo,

btrsyafni