Tuesday, 9 August 2016

A guy who I said my 'no' thrice

Hi guys.

It's me again.  Feel like updating a post. So what should I rant today?

Alright, I'll just share bout my story with someone. (WARNING:it'll will be so cheesy along the read)

I've known my man since we were in primary school. Yadaa yadaa, back then, I was too snobbish 
(according to him). I feel so superior as people really looked up on me. Those days when I always need to come across my secret admires every day, coping with all the secret letters delivered through my closest friends. Those days, when I had like almost a new crush every single year. My feelings would easily change from a person to another real quick. 

So, I'd been in the same class with my man since we were in standard one. But, I never notice of his existence cause literally speaking, I had a huge crush on somebody else ( which happened to be our great great senior) , so yaa, no space for you :P We used to play 'kejar-kejar' (lol idk the exact name for the game) every evening during KAFA when we were in standard 2, I guess. That's the interesting part where both of us grew up together back then in primary school. Those old days of having to play everything that we want after the final exam cause we have like a couple of weeks before school break. YES GUYS! THAT WAS THE BEST MOMENT EVER DURING MY PRIMARY SCHOOL.Everyone will go crazy over various types of games such as board games (chess, uno cards, sahibba, 'billionaire') and sports (ping-pong, football ???). My classmates made their own ping-pong table and they brought their own ping-pong paddle to have a game played in the classroom. As for the boys, they were so over the top playing that 'football' game which they made the ball all by themselves. Okay, can you guys guess what was the ball made of? Hahaha, they just took all the bottle caps available and poof they turned it into a ball. They would go crazy chasing after the ball like IT WAS A REAL GAME!! I will never understand boys ???? Nevertheless, those memories are golden :)

Back to the story, I started to grow fond of my man, I guess when we were in standard 5. But, I was first attracted to one of his close friends ( I won't mention his name here :P) and we somehow had a relationship going on for a while ???? ( basically a puppy love). Then, we broke up for no reason ?? What do you expect from a ten-year-old kid??! 

Luckily, this was the first time I became very interested in my man. He was one of the top 10 students during that time (memang bijak dari kecik la dia ni). It caused hype going around the school as juniors started to pull out their interest towards him. He became so popular since he comes with a full package (cute, smart n rich) whoaa gitu :P Since then, I started to grow hatred towards my juniors who get along with him. I hate them for purposely being friends with him. I hate every single moment that he spent with those juniors. But, I'm a born egomaniac. I didn't even tell him that I like him. I didn't say yes to his confession as I just intentionally left him in awe. I made him clueless. I didn't have the courage to say so. I wanted to have it in my own way. Thus, I was wrong. He gave up on me and went for that junior! I was very fragile and messed up. I started to loathe him and every single thing about him. The saddest part was, I even declared for a war with my junior. Lol, silly me. Again, what do you expect from a twelve-year-old kid?! 

Unfortunately, we parted in a very melancholic way. He went for a boarding school (IT WAS MY DREAM SCHOOL ACTUALLY BUT I DIDN'T MAKE IT THERE) and I went for an all-girl school. We did contact each other when we were in form one and somehow we became close. As time passed by, there's a relationship going on between us but it lasted only for a month or two (READ : WHAT DO YOU EXPECT FROM A THIRTEEN-YEAR OLD KID???!). It was just a puppy love, ain't got no direction and sincerity. We were both blind folded with the game of love. No, I don't want to call it love cause it's more like an affection. When both parties feel very close to each other as they give their full attention towards one another in a certain period of time. Soon, they will be easily swayed by their own feelings as they are both not conformed to the eternal meaning of love. 

We parted again and this one is the longest separation ever cause I never think that I'll be back looking for this guy again. To make it short, I did have some trust issues with guys (my ex-es). However, after both of us have graduated from high school, this guy started to approach me. He texted me every single day and tried to break the gap between us. Again, I didn't notice of his intention to actually bring our relationship to a whole new level. I was just too ignorant and heartless. I told myself not to open up for any guys including him. I was too tired of getting involved in relationships. I said no to him for the second time after he gave me a letter (his confession). 

Soon, it was time to further our studies. Both of us went to a different university. He was offered to take up a Foundation in Engineering at UTP while I enrolled as a law student at UITM Kuantan. We both went on a separate way to achieve our dreams. To my conscience, I really thought that this guy would give up on me as I rejected him twice. No, I was wrong again. He suddenly appeared and texted me at the end of my first semester during foundation. At that time, I was a little bit excited but I still hesitate of accepting someone in my life. We did have a fight, a serious one I guess, cause dude, we were still kids. We didn't grow up enough to think wisely in solving that matter. Shame on us :(
And that was the third time I said 'no' to him and I also thought that this was the end of our story.

5 months passed by, and I finally ended my foundation year. Went back to my hometown and started to breed fats! Lol :P Out of the blue, I dreamed about that guy. The guy whom I have said a 'no' thrice and I swear to myself not to have any kind of relationship with him. From hatred to love, I began my mission by making my first move. I can still remember how awkward it was to approach him for the first time. I gave him a goodnight wish, hoping him to acknowledge my existence. AND THANKS GOD, HE REPLIED ME!!!!! HE REPLIED ME!!!!!! YESS!! I DID IT!!! MY FIRST MOVE WORKED!!! I MADE IT !!! Okay enough with the excitement haha.

I'm looking forward for many years to come with you. Actually, getting into a relationship does reveal your true self somehow. Even if you're such a tough person before, eventually you will somehow portray the other side of yourself to that specific person. You will learn to understand each other as how much I learn bout my man and his eternal love towards football (yelah kan, jumpa football dulu baru jumpa I). I learn how to appreciate even the simplest effort that he pulls out just to make me happy. I learn how to manage my feelings. I learn how to manage my ego. I learn about the concept of 'give and take' in relationship. Yes, I learn almost everything from just one person. Hence, I truly believe that it is one's duty to understand his or her partner thoroughly and complement their flaws. For me, a relationship will never work if only one party takes part but it needs both parties to struggle to the very end.

Well, that's how my story looks like. And, last but not least, a shout out for my man as he's going to have a test tomorrow. Goodluck dear, go break some legs!

(I miss him tho)


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